dragonboat training is getting tougher, and i dunno if i can cope..
haish.
I stayed in ny becos of db, so i cant possibly quit right?
but hor, ytd's training act made me consider whether to stay in nydb not..
I am so damn sad that i am hesitating already lar..

ytd's training was the toughest among all the sea trainings i had so far..
We were constantly reminded, "Mind over body!! Its all about mental!! Endure!!"
I know i know, but i cldnt do it man..
I cldnt stop myself from slacking during training.. I cldnt perservere.. which is very sad lar..
The seniors are all so strong, I cldnt keep up with them, and i feel so weak during these trainings..
Ytd right, i still kena scolding lar..
Its my fault, i know..
I stopped when everyone is rowing so hard..
Then the senior scolded me, " bu yao geng wo sui sui bian ting hor.."
hai. then i feel that i am so useless lar..
cldnt even tahan that little bit of trainings..
Where have all the trainings to tahan, from sj gone to..
Hai.
I am not putting enough effort.. i am not doing enough..
I am such a let down lar..
ytd, the senior who had supervised me, let me slack abit, then she wan me to go all out later..
But i nv.. i like keep knocking into the senior in front of me de paddle..
I think she also irritated le lar..
I cldnt follow the pacing.. esp during power 10.. in the end, will only cos the whol boat to slow down..
I dunno why i ytd so useless lar..
Then seniors keep telling me not to " zhum" the water.. but i kept doing it till the senior also dunno how to correct me le..
all the encouragements and advises cldnt seem to get into me..

In my mind, i only kept thinking bout going ashore.. and stopping to rest..
And not, row harder if i wanna get ashore quicker..
When we finally reach the shore, the seniors said it was a good set..
I think only encourage us nia..
Cos i dun think it was well done.. becos, the pacing was messed up by ppl like me during the last charge..
I am so disappointed by my performance.. cos i keep stopping despite wad the senior said..
" dun stop, cos it will affect the whole boat.."
" mind over body"
" its all about mental.."
"endure!!"

weiling said i had lazy elbow also..
means, my left elbow slacked.. and din move above my head during the start of every stroke..
I got so many mistakes...!
Argh.
I am so angry with myself lar..

ending of training, had some cool down and did some more push ups..

went home and slept till 5+

i feel so useless..

This weds got gym training..
all the best for me sia..
Cos only the fittest will survive!!








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