sea training today..
a sad one for me..
now i am listening to tears by X japan.. makes me even sadder..
haish.
no running today, so did 100+40 push ups. stradle jumps and moment exercises..
went down for rowing.. buddy buddy din manage to get the T paddle so i alternate with her..
bad day for me.. i today like off form.. my leg keep slipping off the step when i kick the boat..
and my butt keep slipping off the seat.
i cut my hand at the gun rail too..
haish. bad day for me..
today's trg is more about strength and endurance..
it rrly makes me break down, mentally and physically.

thats not wad made me sad..
after trg, the snrs had their evaluation..
and they all complain bout me..

is huiting come and tell me then i know..
she said that the snrs say i nv follow pacing and ask me if its true and nv reply them when they correct me and also say i have attitude problem..

i rrly dunno wad to say..
i am rrly saddened by those words lar..
i SWEAR i wasnt showing attitude.. its perhaps my body language which led to this misunderstanding..

huiting also said if i dun change, i might not be able to participate in the June race..
and she dun wann that to happen..
hai.
i rrly din know why the snrs see me that way..
i ONCE AGAIN SWEAR that i wasnt showing attitude problem!!
it just that i dun like to talk when rowing.. esp when i am already so tired..


arg.
i still cant believe that snrs say i have attitude problem..

i am so sad lar..
today already nv row well le, hurt myself still kena reprimanded..
when yuanting they all ask me why huiting asked to talk to me..
when i told them, i feel like crying lar..
its like i put in effort to row, and complete the whole trg with the others..
why am i not appreciated?

i REALLY got row hard lar! but wad they said bout me rrly hurt my feelings lar..
no as thou i slacked thru out the trg, then i deserved to be criticised..

i rrly dunno wad to say...

and this morning, b4 trg starts, huiting come and said to me in a serious tone," u better not slack"
i dun get it till the end of trg..
i guess its not the first time the snrs complain bout me..

just because i am not serious usually doesnt mean i dun row hard and be serious at the right time..
i rrly hope this will be the last time... i rrly hope the snrs will change their opinion bout me..
cos i am REALLY NOT SHOWING ATTITUDE!!!!!


saddd. )))))))))))))))))))))))))):

after that went bathing and went marina square to eat..
bought gold havaianas at heeren.. citylink one no white one, so went heeren..
in the end bought the gold one..50 bucks sia..
kaos.
caroline bought the white one..
go home_


p.s to yuanting. thanks truckloads for your words and biscuit. :)
also to buddybuddy: thanks for ur presence during the tough time.
and my buddy snr: thanks too. we made a promise, i'll change.



when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
bless me.

-peaceout-