going through a tough time.

i have to leave everything behind and start afresh next year.
including the one which im still unsure if its my passion, db


in just a year, db gave me alot of things; fun and pain are great combination for a fulfiling jc life.

• i learnt the importance of surviving through the tough trg as a team.
• when everyone was on the verge of collapsing, its also everyone who held us there.
• gymming sessions were loaded of sweat, pain, laughter and great time spent.
• the close relationship built amongst the ppl in short one year's time is rare and precious.
• the lectures that were made better with these ppl.
• going for lunches together after ponning lessons were so exciting.
• mass msging to pon reading period to hide in the HDB stairs.
• running to the side gate to avoid being detected.
• going for movies at any time of the day just to kill boredom.
• sleeping outside movie threatres while waiting for movies to start was such an experience for me.
• chionging through the rain just to catch a movie at the cathay.
• running through citylink, dodging large crowds just for the thrill.
• studying for exams together and pigging out at the same time when trg stopped.
• joining almost every sports events like touch rugby, badminton made the time after school so enjoyable.
• going through fartleks which were killing together made everyone so encouraging and motivating-u will feel that the whole team is there for u when u taking on another sprint.
• pigging out sessions cum movie marathons and stay-overs.
• the races which were made memorable.
• the post race dinner which were whole lot of fun and relief.
• all the fights we had were pure enjoyment and pain.
• taupoks, pillow fights, mass attacks, tony jaars, cake fights, running all over the campus, contact rugby, slamming each other to solid ground were the spices to my life in ny.
• the ppl were the main ingredient, and when i lose them, jc life will be dull.
• My confidant added tubs of colors to my life. never was it gray.

if only such days be forever.

while reality hit me hard, i seek for the understanding, the care from the people.
when the ones closest to me dun even understand me, it hurts big time.
after having forced to make the worst decision of my life, i feel so helpless.

as i searched for a buoy to grab hold of, be there to pull me up instead.