SERIOUSLY, I THINK THERE'S NOTHING WRONG ABOUT KEEPING THINGS TO MYSELF. BUT MY MUM THINKS THAT IM ANTI-SOCIAL AND A NERD WITH A LIMITED SOCIAL CIRCLE.

WAD CAN I SAY.

SHE WAS TELLING ME IN THE CAR JUST NOW TO JOIN YOGA CLASS AFTER THE As.
AND HONESTLY, IM NOT VERY INTERESTED, FURTHERMORE I'D HAVE TO GO FOR CLASS EVERY SUNDAY WITH SOME AUNTIES, OCCASIONAL UNCLES AND ACCORDING TO MY MUM, ONE OR TWO GIRLS OF MY AGE.

I HATE THE IDEA OF GOING FOR SOME CLASSES, NOT KNOWING ANYONE TO BEGIN WITH. THOUGH ITS INEVITABLE, I TRY TO AVOID BEING CAUGHT IN SITUATIONS LIDDAT AND IN THIS CASE, REJECTING THE IDEA OF JOINING THE YOGA CLASS.

MY MUM KEEP EMPHASIZING THAT I HAD TO BE SOCIABLE TO BE ABLE TO SURVIVE. BUT I REALLY WAN TO SAY THIS TO HER-IM NOT ANTI SOCIAL, IM JUST NOT AS SOCIABLE AS SHE THOT I WOULD BE. PERIOD.

ANW, THIS TOPIC JUST BROUGHT UP UNPLEASANT MEMORIES OF MY CHILDHOOD, THAT IS GOING FOR ENDLESS GROUP TUITION CLASSES BUT I FELT AS IF IM THE ONLY STUDENT. SADLY, THATS ME OUTSIDE SCHOOL. TEACHERS TRIED TO REACH OUT TO ME BUT I REALLY PREFER IF THEY WOULD LEAVE ME ALONE AND JUST GET ON WITH THEIR LESSONS.

I USED TO DREAD GOING FOR TUITION EARLY. BECAUSE WHEN I REACHED THERE, IM ALWAYS ONE OF THE FEW TO REACH. THEY WOULD BITCH ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT IM NOT INTERESTED IN BUT OF COURSE IN THE FIRST PLACE, IM NOT IN THEIR CONVERSATION. AND WHEN I DECIDE TO REST MY HEAD TO REST, THE TEACHER WILL THINK IM NOT FEELING WELL. OH, GREAT.

REMEMBER ONCE, IT WAS THE SEA GAMES PERIOD, SO THE PEOPLE IN MY CLASS DECIDE TO PLEAD WITH MY TEACHER TO LET THEM OUT TO WATCH THE BADMINTON MATCH BETWEEN RONALD SUSILO AND FORGOT-WHO AT THE COFFEESHOP OUTSIDE.THE FIRST THING IN MY MIND WAS, "WTF." AND THE TEACHER FINALLY GAVE IN. AGAIN "WTF." SO THE CLASS WHICH IS MADE UP OF A GROUP OF PPL AND ME DECIDES TO LEAVE TO WATCH THE MATCH IN THE MIDST OF THE LESSON WAD AM I GOING TO DO? WRITE THE ESSAY IN THE COFFEESHOP OR JUST STAY IN THE TUITION PLACE AND HAVE A ONE ON ONE WITH THE TEACHER? OR TO JOIN THE PPL EVEN WITH MUCH RELUCTANCE? DUN ASK ME WHY I DIN ASK TO GO HOME. I JUST DUN WISH TO TALK OR SUGGEST ANYTHING.

SO WHEN I WAS A BOUT TO LEAVE WITH THEM, THE TEACHER ASK, "EH, NI YE YAO QU GEN TA MEN KAN AR?"
"YA" WAS MY ANS, BUT I WAS THINKING"WTF,WO BU XIANG DE BUT IM CAUGHT IN A SITUATION I DUN WAN TO MAKE ANY CHOICES BUT NO CHOICE WAS MY CHOICE."

SO I WENT THERE, SAT DOWN AND HAD TO GLUE MY EYES TO THE TV AND PRETEND THAT I'M ENJOYING THE MATCH AND BE TOTALLY PLEASE WITH THEIR IDEA. AND THEY SEEMED TO BE DAMN PROUD OF COMING UP WITH THIS IDEA. FARKTARDS. I WANTED TO GO HOME SO BAD THEN. BUT WAD TO DO, I HAD TO WAIT FOR MY MUM TO COME FETCH ME ANW AND I HAD NO PHONE AND NO MONEY(OKAY I SOUNDED WEAK..)


OKAY THATS MY CHINESE TUITION, THEN WAS MY SCIENCE TUITION. IT WAS A HOME TUITION, A 4-5 PER GRP TUITION.SO EVERY SUN MORNING I STEP INTO HIS PLACE, I HAD TO PUT MY BAG IN THE KITCHEN AND SIT IN THE LIVING ROOM TO WATCH THE MTV CHANNEL TILL LESSONS START. I STILL RMEMBER IT WAS THE 'MEI MEI KAN MTV' THING. THEN THE FIRST THING HE WILL DO IS TO OFFER US DRINKS. BUT I DIN WANTED ANY. I DUNNO WHY I WAS THAT STUBBORN BUT THROUGH OUT THE TWO YEARS THERE HE DID NOT MANAGE TO CHANGE MY MIND.
SO FOR EVERY LESSON, HE WILL ATTEMPT TO JOKE, ' THIS GIRL AR, DRINK BEER ONE, NEXT TIME I MUST BUY BEER THEN SHE WILL DRINK.'
"......"
AND THAT LASTED FOR 2 YEARS. SIGHS.TUITIONS ARE BORING. AFTER-CLASS WAS THE INSTANT RELIEF TO EVERYTHING.I DUNNO HOW I MANAGED TO GO THROUGH SO MANY TUITION FOR SO LONG LIDDAT, BUT I JUST DID.

LOOKING BACK, I CANT BELEVE WAD I PUT MYSELF THROUGH.BUT ON THE OTHERHAND I LOVE SCHOOL. I CAN MAKE FRIENDS IN SCHOOL BUT NOT IN OTHER PLACES.I THINK ITS BECAUSE ALMOST EVERYONE IS STRANGER TO ANYONE ONE OF US, THINGS CAN START OFF MORE SMOOTHLY. I JUST HATE TO GO TO A PLACE WHERE THE PPL ARE ALREADY FORMING A CLIQUE AND I JUST HAVE TO GO SIT BESIDE THEM AND SAY "HELLO, IM NEW HERE, WAD ARE UAL TALKING ABOUT HAR.?"
I RATHER DIE MAN.

ROAAARR...
IM TIRED. MY BROTHER GOT HIS PAY. IM GOING TO GET BACK WAD HE OWES ME.
ANWS, DUN JUDGE ME FROM WAD I SAID, IM NOT AN ANTI-SOCIAL.REALLY.