I'm very confused, very mad, and very suicidal.

Dislocations is screwing my mind. I cant think. Edge, screw, slip, climb, cross slip, jogs, kinks, burgers, shear, STRESS. Yes, I am stressed. Cause I'm screwed for materials. All these terms seem so harmless but they are killing me, softly.

ARGHHH.

I hate shearwoods' topics. I prefer liuyong's though he talks like crap. I cant do it, I cant pretend I know what I'm reading and skip that lecture, but I'm stuck and very confused. Its late. I cant visualise screw dislocation. Can someone bring me a model and show me. Animations online suck too. AHHHHHH. There's still tanmingjen's lectures. Although I've done studying, my confused mind seemed to have dropped a few portions here and there.


What am I supposed to do. I feel that mat science is the only sub I'm almost done with studying. Or am I. I doubt so already. Cause I feel my brain shattered and I cant seem to find back the pieces.



And why on earth am I blogging.