I'm back from Penang! After a night of almost 12 hours of sleep, I'm still tired. Having flu and a bad cough. I've been coughing so much that my head felt like splitting. D:

This trip had really been an experience, good or bad, its definitely a lesson learnt. At least the girls didnt come home empty handed, a gold and bronze for 10-women crew. I'm so proud that our small boat is doing better and better. From how we used to be out of the top three to gradually moving into the top three. But many strong opponents are up and coming, this race definitely let us see how strong and threatening they are. Need. to. train. harder.


Other than that, my heart had been heavy throughout this trip. Many thoughts were running. At times, I'm just sitting there, thinking of the same thing over and over again, trying to get things right, trying very hard to convince myself that what I'm doing is right. I'm suppressing everything, can you tell. Because I'm afraid of the consequences. I'm afraid of history repeating itself.


bilanymtae,


I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring
Need something that I can confess