Sam's party was great. Had food and booze. Naisss:) except for something which really pisses me off till now. And again I questioned myself why am I still so dumb to trust her again. Not like I've not learnt my lesson. And I really hate it. It's gets frustrating. The thing is I really don't want to work with you anymore, it just makes me see more of ur ugly side. URGH.

Other than that, training the next day was alright for me except that I kept yawning. But I don't think I was anywhere far from my usual standards so don't give me the fucking expression like what I did was wrong. I dint devote my whole self to this sport. At least not now. So give me some bloody breathing space. Because I pulled my weight even with a hangover so fking give me a break already. Ppl like you make me question why am I doing this for. And ya ya ya, I'm a fking vc who's always late, gets drunk the night before training, makes empty promises and yada yada. If ure not happy I'll gladly step down. Fucking pissed at the world.

Mood swings. Because I dint have my dose of Happy Pill :(. Gotta chill. But ihatecny.


Mybmmmmm.