47th STOREY

We are marching on

2010-09-12T23:40:00.002+08:00

Life kinda suck for me now. I'm tired, I'm broke, I think about million of things before I fall asleep, I'm fucked up. Everything seems to be gg wrong and I'm actually not motivated to do anything about it. Fuck up life. Ppl don't understand, ppl think they know and they care. Give me a break. Head is splitting again.

Why can't life be simpler.

Be Back Soon

2010-08-06T12:14:00.000+08:00

2010-08-04T00:58:00.002+08:00

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Around the time of a year ago, I was struggling/suffering. Now here I am, unsure of whats gonna happen. I dont want to suffer for a month plus before everything/anything gets back on track.

2010-08-04T00:40:00.002+08:00

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Hello I've so many things to ask you to tell you. Sorry I missed your call today ):

Tick Tock, its Wednesday already, I realised when ure not around I'd want to stay up to see the time past, at least I know its passing.

I thought I would set a record for not stepping out of home for a week but there the job thing and my tuition. At least at the job I'll meet some of the girls.

This is the best feeling

2010-08-02T09:08:00.004+08:00

I'm home :)

Time for my paddle and I to take a break.

Shall hit the sack. Goodnight world, goodmorning dreams.

2010-07-19T16:12:00.002+08:00

And I got bored doing nothing at home. Streaming videos, page-hopping on facebook and tweeting. I love the mac, its semi mine now since Im the one using it half the time. Spells boredom man, I cant wait to fly! Macau here I come. :D I have tons of things to buy. Shopping this week. yes. :)

watching himym kinda bored by it already though its funny, u will know the woman he met is not the wife? since im only at season one? but beats doing nothing.

whats the craziest thing you've done lately

2010-06-04T22:15:00.002+08:00

I bought a tee! HAHAHA when I'm so poor and jobless. It has been so long I went shopping ): I need to get my job back so that I can shop every week!

Today, I found delight picking the nicestest, uniquestest tie dye :D

I haven been doing what I'm supposed to do, to think back gives me stress. HAHAHA, sighh. Double training tomorrow, saturday! YAY, welcomes the PA people. Weekends=my kiaoka days.

STEEEEEAMBOAT! slurppps :D heee.

2010-05-05T11:40:00.003+08:00

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I can't wait for this semester to end. Not Just academic sem cause it's finally ending after tomorrow. But just this half of the year. Can't wait for this PM to be over so that I can step down and the main reason, I can't wait for the WHOLE appointment holders to change. The system which I detest needs to be change, we need new faces for a change. For the better or for the worse. I hope there won't be an re runs of any appt holders, and I'm not just refering to myself. Better not.

Oh oh what are you waiting for

2010-04-27T19:36:00.002+08:00

3 papers down, 3 more to go. Spanish paper was a disaster. Level 2 is so hard, its like expecting us to be half-spanish or something. ): And I was still hoping that it would pull up my gpa, looking at how I fared last semester, this semester I think it will pull down my grades! D: Other than that, the toughest mod, that is thermodynamics, is next. All the symbols and formulaes and graphs and diagrams and not to forget the tables and charts. OMG. I hope this mod will not screw me. And its back to back with fluids, another killer mod. ): Then after that, I can finally go homeeee.

And my sneezing fits is back T.T

I dont know what's right and what's real anymore

2010-04-21T13:54:00.004+08:00

This is not the right time. My head is splitting.

Boooo yet another stay home weekend

2010-04-11T11:00:00.001+08:00

Zzz.. Empty words..

They call me freedom, just like a waving flag

2010-04-10T00:31:00.003+08:00

Youtube is not working with blogger. I'm so sad, I cant post the videos directly nowwww. ):

To the AWWWWWWWwesomestestestb, THANK YOUVVVVMUCH! For going a long way(literally)for meee :D :D :D

2010-04-07T10:39:00.002+08:00

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For the first time in my life, I'm actually looking forward to every after-meals, which is when I can take my medicines. It means I'm a step closer to getting well. I hate being sick. Especially my cough. This time it sucks so bad. One flight of stair and my breathing gets heavy and loud. I feel like I'm having asthma 24/7 just yet to give me a sudden attack. Doctor says I'm on strong antibiotics but I'm still not getting better, maybe I'm too impatient, maybe I'm too immune to the multiple antibiotics I've taken for my cough over the past 4 years. D:

I need a new pair of lungs.

the warren harding error

2010-04-06T08:54:00.002+08:00

Haven been blogging in a while! Time flies, MR is over, all tests are over and I have 2 weeks to exams. ): Over the long weekend, had a picnic with the babies, went to trainings with my failing lungs, caught When In Rome, ate my first macaroon, tasted squid ink pasta for the first time, window-shopped and did alot of stuff other than studying. And I went for my test on Monday unprepared. HAHA. But I got a good news! I saw an A+ that I haven seen for agesss. And yay, I got A+ for my thermo quiz! :D The best morale boost to kick off this mugging period! :)) But the medication I'm taking is screwing me. I feel so tired and so hungry, maybe its not the meds but I'm blaming it on them. Skipped my morning class today, intend to study in one corner in the library but I'm getting sleepy after having to stand the whole journey here.

Anyway, I'm reading a book recently called 'Blink' and it makes me feel so intellectual. So apparently if u tried to describe a Professor, think of all the characteristics of them and someone else does it for a Hooligan. Both brains will unconsciously be influenced into different states. Both experiment candidates were given questionaires and the former was able to answer more questions! Conclusion is think about all the smart stuff and you will unconsciously becomes smart. Great. I dont need anymore ginko pills. I need to learn how to use my super brain.

I'm really hungry though I had a slice of cake this morning. I need to start telling myself I'm not hungry, I'm not hungry, I'm not hungry... This book doesnt teach people to brainwash themselves btw. ITS THE POWER OF BRAIN! THE POWER OF THINKING WITHOUT THINKING! Need to keep myself awake too! ARGH.

Read this and comprehend for fucking god sake.

2010-03-29T23:18:00.007+08:00

I need people who know when to stop pushing my limits. Because my patience is being tested. I am soo muthafucking serious. Because enough is enough, what else can it be.

Alejandro

2010-03-19T23:31:00.001+08:00

LOVE THIS. :D

So many things to do these days, lab report, tech comm report + OP, EID biz plan and piles of tutorials which I cant get myself to start.

Now, I'm having flu. Terrible nose block ):

2010-03-17T01:45:00.002+08:00

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Sometimes life gets a little bit fucked up. My laptop just crashed, sort of
and things are pissing me off. I really hate working with you. I'm always biased, always angsty. I see more unkind words coming out from me in near future. I'm tired. I don't like the way you are, period.

2010-03-06T22:58:00.002+08:00

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Haven posted in ages. Seemed to have lost the momentum to blog. With so many things happening, I'm just too lazy to put them down in words. Recess week ending in one and my last day of recess will probably be another shagged out day because of training. And maybe I'll consider starting to study. One week just flew past. Damnit. MR is coming. 12men crew is tiring. I cannot believe we complete 800m for june race. I'm tired, very tired. I need a break! Other than the 8 hours of sleep I'm gg to get if I sleep now. ): But when ure a rower, there's no such thing as breaks. HATESIT. Okay off to bed. 8 hours of sleeep. :)

TGIRW

2010-02-25T10:08:00.005+08:00

It says Thank God Its Recess Week. Can't wait for it to come. Other than having 4 CAs down by then. I can finally replenish my sleep. Had been dragging myself out of bed everyday D: and will have more
time for movies and outings and pillow talks! Though RW is meant for studying. 2001 quiz later and 2002 tml. Fml
I haven start on 2002 yet. Evaluation later, gives me the ptss. Good luck everyone.

you dont know me

2010-02-22T19:13:00.003+08:00

One thing I hate the most, is to be judged. When people assume they know me and lay defining statements on me.

I've got a fucking noisy neighbour upstairs playing horrible tunes on the piano. wtf.

That thought of yours kills me

2010-02-20T11:51:00.003+08:00

Wriggling baits still give me goosebumps. I imagine I accidentally flick them on myself. O.O UGH. Sorry for being a wimp. HAHAHA. Love the prawns, love the stroll, love the time well spent. Though its short but its better than nothing right! TGIF.

I'm sneezing and I feel drowsy, like I'm on flu medication. But I'm not. The tingling sensation in my nose keeps coming. GOD, I just sneezed twice. Anyway, steamboat plus bbq grill tonight. Fantastic, I cant wait :D

I've lost weight! Though I wasnt on any diet, yay.

We'll run till we're strong enough to jump

2010-02-16T22:08:00.004+08:00

Evaluating soon. I'm chua sai-ing already. 10,10,10,10,10. I better chant myself to sleep.

Finger hurts. 4 tests next week. Heaps of tutorials. Life sucks. New year still need to think about school work. D:

Thats it for now.
The only email I love :D wheeee~

Lips or salmon?

2010-02-15T02:02:00.002+08:00

Sam's party was great. Had food and booze. Naisss:) except for something which really pisses me off till now. And again I questioned myself why am I still so dumb to trust her again. Not like I've not learnt my lesson. And I really hate it. It's gets frustrating. The thing is I really don't want to work with you anymore, it just makes me see more of ur ugly side. URGH.

Other than that, training the next day was alright for me except that I kept yawning. But I don't think I was anywhere far from my usual standards so don't give me the fucking expression like what I did was wrong. I dint devote my whole self to this sport. At least not now. So give me some bloody breathing space. Because I pulled my weight even with a hangover so fking give me a break already. Ppl like you make me question why am I doing this for. And ya ya ya, I'm a fking vc who's always late, gets drunk the night before training, makes empty promises and yada yada. If ure not happy I'll gladly step down. Fucking pissed at the world.

Mood swings. Because I dint have my dose of Happy Pill :(. Gotta chill. But ihatecny.

Mybmmmmm.

:))

2010-02-08T23:32:00.002+08:00

I'M EXCITED.

2010-02-08T00:22:00.002+08:00

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60 new notifications spam in my mailbox from people chatting in facebook over the same thing, from the same few people just because I'm tagged and I'm not even interested in looking at them. What a badly structured sentence, in short, time to get over it already. I'm tired like shit but I had to clear my mailbox. Went to Sentosa for SnS today. I'm guessing tml I will have a pretty bad kp session from my coursemates for not appearing and doing what I have to do. I'm getting used to it actually. I really dont want to live for others anymore. Because I hate it. This friday is going to be a blast, dont really care whats going to happen the next day. I really dont give a damn now. So sick of this kind of routine I have to put myself through. Life's short, there are many things I have yet to try, learn and experience, so why limit ourselves.

all we ever do is goodbye

2010-02-06T20:22:00.003+08:00

I had my lunch and concussed on the couch till dinner time D: Trainings deprive me of sleep, energy and alot of other things. Now that I'm wide awake, I will most probably not sleep that early and tomorrow will be another cycle of lack of sleep. Ahhh, trainings...

And my left palm hurts. It has been a week plus. It feels like a big bruise that doesnt seem to go away.

1 more day to go! :))

mylcb ):

2010-02-04T09:51:00.003+08:00

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School is getting fucking depressing. Everyday/everyone in school makes me feel dumb. I really hate doing what I'm not good at. Truth is, there's nothing much that I'm good at anyway. So I can just forget about it. Feels like shitxzxs. FML.

And you're not there.

2010-02-04T01:32:00.002+08:00

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No mood to studehhh. ): Tons of work to do. EID is so annoying now. When I'm at home, I stay up doing nothing, when I'm in hall, I concussed way too early. I'm not cut out to be an engineering student. Need new hobbies, life's too dull. Sighs.

love is when you want to kiss and you get bit

2010-02-01T23:18:00.003+08:00

I hate losing the rhythm when I just settle down to start studying. Fucking internet. So screwed. Fucking detect my laptop please. And thermo sucks balls too. I cant do a single shit question. So much for trying so hard to keep up with my studies; waking up for all lectures 0830 five days a weekillme, staying awake even when I'm tired as hell. And I still cant make it past a fucking tutorial one. I'm really fucking tired of how my life is. Studying a course I absolutely dread, training and rowing like a fucking zombie. I have no life. I've been thinking abit too much lately, thinking of my future, of school, of training. Maybe db is no longer my coolsport.

Self help book plus a stick or two sounds good. FML la. ARGHGHGHGHGH.

Tell me how can I not wonder.

2010-02-01T01:30:00.003+08:00

Brrr I don't know what will happen and I'm actually scared and not looking fwd to it anymore. Had been in such awkward situations too many times that I already foresee what might happen. Sighs. I'm tired weekend burnt out from all the birthday parties, I need a break.

Keppel Bay was starry tonight.

I wish I could read your mind.

One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind

2010-01-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

Really dont like thursdays. So packed. Long day. And empty. D: myab!

Family dinner at the Soup Restaurant. Very full :D And I've proven myself to be a real fan tong. Everyone else shared rice, I had one bowl to myself. Ahh Nom nom nom :B I'm sleepy already but I have tutorials D:

there's nothing like you and I

2010-01-24T18:51:00.002+08:00

I DONT LIKE MY MOOD SWINGS.

It's like I'm feeling pissy over anything and everything. I need to control my temper ):

imsb,mmbhfmty!

The restless heart, the Promised Land

2010-01-23T23:04:00.003+08:00

Sunburnt TTM. So red, skin so raw. Blame that ungodly training time.

If I had to, I'd fight for the best for my team and not for the best for myself.
If I cant even do that, I rather I dont have that ability to do so. I'm not there to just do your shitjobs.

Sometimes I get tired, tired of having to many things bothering me. I just want to take the back seat sometimes and not be bothered. I dont want to see or know the ugly side. I just want to be a rower with no responsibilities. Dont tell us we are a family, show us that we are. When was anyone given the rights without having to go through a guilt trip. I'm not doing good enough but I'm sick of trying. Trying so hard to be spontaneous, to be worker. Truth is I'm a bummer and I enjoyed being one. I wanted to chuck all responsibilities aside today so badly and just do what I want to do. I'm waiting for this sem to end, just hoping I wont quit on the team before it ends.

Another day of training tomorrow. Life gets a little boring. Its just school and training. Many 21st parties next weekend.

I've always been a dreamer,
I've had my head among the clouds
Now that I'm coming down,
Wont you be my solid ground

lmbttm :D

I'll be your float

2010-01-20T12:00:00.006+08:00

I dont like thursdays.

Cause our timetables are so perfectly unmatched D:

See you in 6325435475433 hours.

Riverside, let's go!

2010-01-18T00:19:00.002+08:00

And the weekend is over that soon:( had been rowing nuaing and rowing nuaing:)) caught The Blind Side after lunch today. It was a really nice movie so I'm satisfied! Walked around and ta Baird dinner to Keppel Bay to eat, nua and htht :D I love the apartments and the yachtss there! Omg I want to be that filthy rich too, go inside the yacht and watch tv! Anw that place was freezing because of the land breeze. Tsk I was chattering already. So now I'm home not feeling that well :( but I had a great time! :B

School tml. T.T

I believe in you like a virgin you're Madonna

2010-01-16T22:16:00.002+08:00

First week of school passed and I'm already dreading monday to come. Cause it means more lectures to attend, more tutorials to do, more things to memorize, more stress and less time to play. Bad for health.

So tired already, nuaed the whole afternoon/evening at tcc, spending close to 4 hours sitting there. Bitching overload. :D So I dint study. ): Like alot of things I haven finish doing but I just keep procrastinating. Tsk. Hate it.

My flu is so terrible. I cant stop sneezing. ):

I put my money where my mouth is

2010-01-11T21:40:00.002+08:00

I had a great steamboat dinner with my family last night! Plus the superb grill. :D Steamboat at my place next time!

First day of school was alright. I survived. What can I say. More days to come, more 830 classes to come, more classes into late evenings to come. I will survive! :) Anw the aircon in hall is so shiok! So cold and makes the room so comfy that I dont want to leave! Dozed off within minutes. Should be moving in tomorrow! :)

you know I'm such a fool for you

2010-01-09T23:02:00.004+08:00

Training was alright today, just that I'm very sleepy. And no more sleep ins from now on. 5 days of 0830 lessons. And weekends have to wake up as early for trainings ): Life sucks, I cant wait for the next public holiday.

But it was fun today. Places-hopped for the whole afternoon :DD

I have many many secrets/woes. LOL

mysmalltwin :)

2010-01-01T15:38:00.002+08:00

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Need to start packing my study table and kickstart my first ever chaomugging semester. Cause this sucks and I will not let this happen again. Fucking GPA 5. Here I come. Nb. RAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRR I AM NOT GOING TO GRADUATE WITH NO FUCKING HONORS.

waking up with you everyday is june

2009-12-31T23:18:00.003+08:00

Less than an hour to the year 2010. Marks the start of becoming slaves to books once again. D: Spending my newyear's eve at home ): but I had quite a good nye's eve spent at Supperclub, the not so awesome freeflow but awesome free drinks we got from sandra's friend :D Dont even know what time we left the place, only know that the lights came on around 3 plus and I was exhausted.

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Now its one hour into 2010. And I saw fireworks from my living room. Singtel network was jammed. I'm awake.

Oh sentosa the other day was fun, checked out the Shack which was pretty much the ideal chillout place I would never get sick of. The sea, the sand and the beer.

Praying for love in a lap dance

2009-12-29T00:12:00.002+08:00

Sent Crystal off at the airport bright and early this morning. Breakfast + nuaed before heading home for lunch and nap. And I was out to meet the people I havent met in a long time :) And Ruffles which was a pup when I last saw him had grown into the most normal looking/adorable toypoodle. His face is just strangely human-liked. So scary to think of it. HAHA. Okay I'm tired. I didnt want to wet my hair and I did. Now I have to blow them dry. Fucking sleepy already ):

Sentosa tomorrow! Ignore love in a lapdance, pray for super good/hot weather tomorrow! :D

十月围城

2009-12-27T00:40:00.003+08:00

Bodyguards and Assassins is yet another awesome movie to catch :D Love how there are huge HK stars at every part of the movie although most only had small parts in the whole movie. And the fight scenes are so good, got me all glued to the screen though I'm already very much near the screen. I wished I had a better seat then I wouldnt have to strain my eyes and neck. D: But the whole movie ended with the leads dead ):

Leon Lai died an ugly man. HAHAHA

:D:D:D

It's the fall from glory

2009-12-25T21:36:00.003+08:00

Spent Christmas' Eve's Eve at Yvonne's place. Good food, fun and people :)

And first hour of Christmas' Eve by the river :D

Caught Avatar today! Pretty awesome movie, love it

Sometimes things happen unexpectedly, mood swings, and the wrong words came at the wrong time. I admit I was upset.
Shameful is not my middle name, when I put aside my pride, I wish I would get it back someday. Because there's nothing wrong with this.

I'm proud of you and I wish you were too.

your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains

2009-12-23T00:06:00.003+08:00

I'm in the midst on an online discussion with my EID groupmates, 50% attendance, great. And I dint really do any research for solar cells as I promised to do, so I'm going to bullshit later, and pretend I'm so good at it. HAHAHA.

One republic's songs really give me chills. But I'm loving them :)

Christmas party tomorrow. I'm not having the Christmas mood. And I got the most dreaded christmas gift ever-Chocolates. Dont want, I bring home and eat ): I'm not looking forward to this year's christmas party though. But I know I will enjoy the shopping with the babies before that :D

Training today, I ran one round BR in slippers. Haha, cui. more running to come. I hope no one will be late tomorrow, me inclusive D: I'm fucking tired. And I see this meeting will not end that early. Omg. Eyes. Closing. Omg cannot take it. Can someone switch off my modem accidentally. Then I can pretend I dc-ed and cannot come back. ): I cannot understand what they talking about. My brain is dead. I am super tired. That ahpui text me halfway fall asleep. How can. I need to escape this. I'm hungry. Tomorrow training at 8!

Ahpui, save me, where art thou. D:

My past should not be any sign of your future

2009-12-21T00:23:00.004+08:00

Staying up with killer fatigue, eyes closing. -.- So glad I can finally take a break tomorrow and just rot at home. Need to download some apps to keep me entertained. Trainings had been burning me out. I can hardly survive past 11 o' clock and now its 1. I actually struggled to keep myself awake for that long when I could have slept. ):

ilmbmmmm :)

When you're dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part

2009-12-15T13:02:00.002+08:00

I'm back from Penang! After a night of almost 12 hours of sleep, I'm still tired. Having flu and a bad cough. I've been coughing so much that my head felt like splitting. D:

This trip had really been an experience, good or bad, its definitely a lesson learnt. At least the girls didnt come home empty handed, a gold and bronze for 10-women crew. I'm so proud that our small boat is doing better and better. From how we used to be out of the top three to gradually moving into the top three. But many strong opponents are up and coming, this race definitely let us see how strong and threatening they are. Need. to. train. harder.

Other than that, my heart had been heavy throughout this trip. Many thoughts were running. At times, I'm just sitting there, thinking of the same thing over and over again, trying to get things right, trying very hard to convince myself that what I'm doing is right. I'm suppressing everything, can you tell. Because I'm afraid of the consequences. I'm afraid of history repeating itself.

bilanymtae,

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring
Need something that I can confess

you're such a turn off

2009-12-09T00:04:00.004+08:00

Who says you have to be brown to be Peanut :)

I still have the same words for you 'Fuck off and too bad'

lmfbs! csmmh :)

2009-12-06T20:37:00.002+08:00

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I'm finally free from exams though now I have to start worrying about my results ): Went for trainings this weekend! And heading to penang soon! :)

Anyway, I chiong home after training today. Feels so shiok to be at home in the afternoon. I had lunch, and nap till dinner time before waking up for dinner. But I was too ful to finish my dinner. And my dinner is quite nice ):

And now I'm lazing around, watching tv, surfing the net on the bed. Wheee~

And tomorrow I will have the whole day at home, what should I do.

2009-12-04T01:22:00.002+08:00

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Futile attempt to study at Starbucks today ): It was too cold and my iced vanilla latte just doesnt taste right )):

BUT! Lamb shank at nydc for dinner :D And cakes from Big O.

I think I will die again tomorrow. Within couple of exam weeks, I died so many times. D:

how did we get so mean

2009-12-02T02:12:00.003+08:00

I'm beginning to think that no one else in the family will come back home to a sleeping family except me. Because seems like no matter what time they come home, I'll be awake. Son las dos en punto de la manana, my dad just came home, I think he's drunk cause he came into my room, twice, within a span of 5 mintute to ask the same question.

Anyway, had spanish paper in the evening, the only paper I completed 99%,1% from forgetting what is sunday in spanish. Tsk. Hope I can do well and pull my pathetic gpa up. But I think this sem, my other mods will pull the already cui gpa down down down. ):

Last paper to go! WHooooo.

eres bella

2009-11-30T22:13:00.004+08:00

Hola! Yo soy happy por que tengo dos mas papels! :)
[HAHAHA, the above is a tryveryhardtocomeupwith spanish sentence]

Anyway, I found my ipod. :D :D I think my crumpler has a secret compartment. Cause I swear it wasnt there then. Creeepy. So I'm happy :D

2034 is horrid. ShitzxZXxz.

And my ipod played an awesomezx song by nickelback :))

Back to mi libros :3

Speeding Cars

2009-11-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

And you know I love you, yeah.

1. I lost my ipod. Fantastico.

2. I had nonya dinner for the first time yesterday.

3. I cooked today's dinner :)

4. I dozed off, woke up sweating, thank god there's aircon and coffee.

5. Where's my fucking ipod.

6. Adam Lambert! :D

7. I need my sugar.

Life's sucks. When there's a gain, there will be a loss and vice versa isnt it. My ipod must be making way for future iphone. Might be a blessing in disguise.

T.T I miss you although ure ugly as hell.

hs,yhbsas :3

Friends, lovers or nothing

2009-11-26T00:51:00.004+08:00

Okay, I hate myself. Its past midnight, I have a paper tomorrow morning and I have one whole chunk of topic untouched, I still found time to blog. HAHAHAH :)

Anyway, I hate the shujianjun, I cant see his tiny and illegible handwriting from online lects and I cant understand him ): I'm DOOMED. But I'm going to stay up as late as my eyes and brain can take and try to absorb as much as possible cause I realised, sleeping early doesnt help in my memory anyway. Experience came from this morning's paper. More than half the duration of the paper, I spent it people watching, flipping my papers and grabbing my head. I'm DOOMED. I'm so sure I would db, I started thinking of ways to make the submission of my answer script a void like writing the wrong matriculation number. Possible? Hahaha. Okay I'm starting to feel a little sleepy.

After tomorrow's math paper I'd have 4 days break to prepare for 2004 and espanol! :)) Cant wait for the break, consecutive papers are deadly.

Okay back to Laplace.

Lesson learnt

2009-11-24T17:52:00.004+08:00

I know its not the new year yet but I'm going to set new year resolutions now.

1. I MUST ATTEND ALL LECTURES AND TUTORIALS RELIGIOUSLY (thats if they are not after a 3 hours break)

2. PRINT ALL LECTURE NOTES/TUTORIALS(BRINGING THEM TO CLASS INCLUDED)

3. TAKE NOTES IN LECTURES INSTEAD OF SLEEPING

4. DO TUTORIALS AT HOME

5. ATTEND ONLINE LECTURES AND DO REVISIONS DAILY

I SWEAR I THINK I WILL DO ALL THAT.

And I'm saying this because I know I'm so scewed for my two papers tomorrow and the day after. I have no idea what I am studying and I have to start from scratch because my lecture notes are either not printed or empty. Bless me that I will miraculously figure my way out during my two papers. Like some formulaes which will appear in my head for me to scribble in my answer booklet. I have no time, no chance, but I do have alot of faith and belief. HAHAHA, I believe that I can do this, even without much studying. As long as I believe in myself, my brain is powerful enough to bring me through this oncoming disaster, isnt it.

Great, so I moved on to facebook :D
HAHAHA just kidding.

icl,iliwy~ :)

fuck you

2009-11-23T01:34:00.002+08:00

You are thinking and talking way too much. Because if you want to spin the globe your way, get a fairy fucking godmother. And if you think things are so simple, you're fucking wrong because it takes two fucking hands to clap. Do some self evaluation before you judge. You are not fucking flawless so dont pretend to be one.

knn, I am sbdl.

On a happier note, Phoenix clinched silver medal at tertiary women 10-crew. Great job. Weekend well spent cause its not on studying :)

at the worst of my mind

2009-11-21T23:51:00.004+08:00

River regatta: first for tertiary women 10 crew heats. Finals tomorrow.
Bathed and lunched at gwc, studied for like 30 minutes before going for an impromptu movie. 2012!

But I was quite tired throughout the movie and there were so many people dying, like gordan who miraculously managed to fly his family to safety died in the end, the yuri's gf who almost died, didnt but drowned in the end and of course yuri died. And I really dint catch the part why he dint manage to board the ship. I dont get how the tibetans got into the picture. And the family of four lived happily ever after.

I dont like the movie, its just earthquakes and more earthquakes, more volcanic eruptions and more tsunamis which flooded the whole planet till the sea level almost reached the peak of mount everest?! I think I said I hate movies with disasters, I still do. So silly. Best part, they played Adam Lambert's new song at the credits. :)

Kenny Rogers for dinner, ribs and chicken! :D

Homed and I damn tired but I need to read abit for 2008! TSKK.

hfc,mal :)

goodbye for now,

2009-11-20T21:43:00.004+08:00

my Mechanics of Materials text book, lecture notes and tutorials :) I hope I wont see you next sem.

Nanyang audi was freezing and I breezed through my paper today cause there're not formulaes, equations, working examples I forgot, purely because I remembered none. HAAAAH. Wish me luckk for this ):

And I feel as if I had conquered 6 papers when it's only my first. I was home and watching tv like I'm done with exams. Then I'm back at my study table D: I want 4th dec to come soon.

Regatta this weekend, I have to be sneaky.

Circuits and math next!

lmsagbsislg,il :)

You know me

2009-11-19T20:56:00.002+08:00

Enjoy this awesome song :)

2001 sucks. Every mod sucks. Just that I'm having this paper tomorrow, its draining andstressing me out like RIGHT NOW. UGH. I had a nightmare when I took my nap at my study table. Fuck, it was so scary. ):

I think I'm going to forget everything when I start my paper anyway, got to rely on the pathetic formulaes in the formula sheet. Tutorials, online lectures, past years! WHY SO MUCH TO STUDY. I still have 2 chapters untouched. HA HA HA, I'm so dead. T.T

I dont get the video much, but the song is nice :D

Since you went away, my heart breaks everyday

until i met you

2009-11-18T02:04:00.003+08:00

I studied till 2 this morning, had supper and slept at 3 D: Exam period is fattening. I read on the Yahoo! news and it says there was meteor showers this morning at 1am till dawn, I cant believed I missed it since I was out and about at that time D: Why are there people saying theres meteor showers tonight then.

And I want to buy toto, HAHAHA

I should stop dreaming and really buy those possible tickets to happiness.

I feel lucky. :)

Ihatethisbugflyinginfrontofmerightnow.
I smack it, it falls and it gets up and start flying around. Damn that tiny bug.

I AM SBDL TRYING TO GET MY SFDss AND BMDss RIGHT. FAAAAAARKING DL!

and i know that its a wonderful world

2009-11-16T00:41:00.004+08:00

Stay home day = waking up at 2, having 2 pieces of cold pratas dipped in cold curry, studying, walking around, studying, awful charsiewrice for dinner, sleep, bathe, study, eating 4 slices of bread, studying, looks at the time-2am. All that in 12 hours, continues to study. I want to die. I dont want to just eat sleep study, I'm not a chaomugger D:

SIAN.

Need to get out of the house. And play.

ilmsasddg! :))

I'll try, until I die, for you and I

2009-11-15T01:48:00.003+08:00

I AM SUPER HUNGRY. It has been more than 7 hours since I last ate. Early dinner is bad for late nights studying. Now I have to find food. ): Coffee was awful, diluted and somehow left a bad taste in my mouth D:

Anyway, I have been really shagged out for this exam studying period, sleeping at almost daybreak everyday and had to survive on short naps, intentional or not, throughout the day to keep me going. I need a good sleep after my exams, 12 hours of sleep to compensate for my losses.

And I actually managed to crawl out of bed this monning at 6:15 for training after sleeping for only 2 hours. And the bus ride to tampines I was busy playing LUXOR. Was exhausted even before training started. DD:

My youtube converter is spoilt cause I cant find the songs I converted! ): Was trying to convert Britney's old songs, again. She is BoomzXz!

The Lovers Are Losing

2009-11-14T01:57:00.003+08:00

EXAMS ARE COMING! ):
Regatta is coming!

I want to party after my papers but I'll be in penang. holidays! wait for meeee.

And I want to go bkk. ):

Anyway, I saw charcoal, that black and tiny furball. Aww, all were cute till I smell his breathe. D:

Hello to my SAG! mlfmty!

i wanna i wanna i wanna touch you

2009-11-11T23:03:00.003+08:00

Today has got to be the earliest I've reached home in ages. 6.40pm (: Ate dinner with my mum. Watched from the small screen cause the TV in the living room was down and up and finally dead few days back. And so the new TV is coming in tomorrow. And my mum tried to make me come home tomorrow because I was pretty excited to see the new TV, come home la, can see the new TVHAHA. And she gave me some money cause she got her pay today :) I want exams to be over. I promise to study hard next semester just let me pass this sem. I dont want to see 2008 and 2007 again, dont let me tabao. D:

Other than that, I'm looking forward to the overseas trips in dec, Penang and Beijing! ((:

immfba, itilmhwhbifsewh, lmm :)

2009-11-10T22:20:00.003+08:00

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This morning was a bad attempt to wake up at 0630 after sleeping for only 2 hours. D: End up I was so tired, I shut off my alarm clock, picked up f's call at 0840 and still concussed till 1130, missing all three lectures/tutorials/important revisions! D:

Had lunch in school, halled and to lwn. MY EYES ARE CLOSING/CLOSED -.-

SO SCARY

2009-11-10T02:43:00.002+08:00

And everyone caught My sister's keeper over the weekend, like such coincidences! :D

this is twice as nice

2009-11-09T23:42:00.004+08:00

Fucking logic gates, I dont know why I'm studying this. I really dont know why. Why am I in ingenieria mecanica in the first place!

3 hours later..
Actually, its quite interesting, after listening to the tutorial explaination. I think I can be good at logic gates. HAHA, but I'm only done with tutorial 1. Good luck to me. ): MOM, MOM, I haven touch MOM D: I counted, I have many days for fluids, so yes, its not time for fluids yet. 2001, 2008, 2004, 2007, 2005!

Spanish listening was bad ): I only caught leche out of cafe con leche I still thought I was sharp enough to hear the word leche but everyone else seemed to have heard cafe con leche. FAIL.

IMMFB,LAA! :)

a mad rush

2009-11-08T16:31:00.002+08:00

I went from the Cathay to smu and was swopping tables to find a good spot before I realised I lost some good internet connection and then I'm back at the Cathay without powerpoint, surviving on a pathetic hour 40 batt life. Read my book, had the girl at Starbucks take my order and deliver my drink to me :) Then it was another round of table hopping because of the rain.

consumed with what's to transpire

2009-11-08T00:49:00.004+08:00

Time to learn the lesson, it has been 3 semesters, its proven, looks are decieving. Trust either yourself or at least people who are truly and evidently studious/intelligent(got to be smarter than me at least), the rest can just fuck off.

Not all geeks come in a package, while some nerds have peabrains.
I dont give Karma a fucking damn, you know you know?

Had BBQ last night, it was not bad :)

lmfmofmm :D

it's obvious you're all I see

2009-11-04T14:52:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's steamboat buffet was epic, 5 of us and 20 longs of xlbss :) I was so full, I was swearing off xlbs then but now I'm hungry again, I think I can still take 2 longs. HAHA :D

Woke up at 12 today ): So I skipped my whole day of lectures, except Spanish class later. Listening and oral next week, so dead D:

Stay gives me chill, somehow.

And I'll be here in the morning if you say stay,
if you say stay to me

something must have made you say that

2009-11-03T00:03:00.004+08:00

I'm very tiredddd ):

And I finally went for a haircut :) Not the nicest haircut but at leasy its not the worst. I feel so goooood to have short hair again, though I came home to see my recent pictures and I missed my long hair already D:

Have a long break tomorrow before xlbss and yes I'm finally having xlbssss buffet! :D

could stare at that face for the rest of my days

2009-10-31T20:09:00.003+08:00

I felt a little guai lan on the train today and decided to put on my windbreaker infront of a few kids who were shivering in their wet clothes even though I wasnt feeling that cold. Heee.

And, I decided to be nice and waited with a granny for her bus cause she couldnt see in the dark and I missed my bus ):

*waves enthusiastically* YES! I WANT I WANT! LOL

This is the last song

2009-10-30T22:11:00.002+08:00

Looks like someone hasn't got off our toes yet. So annoying

I love coming home to a tet pack of OJ in the fridge (:

You were not in sight

2009-10-30T03:07:00.002+08:00

Birthday celebration ended on quite a bad note but anyhow, thanks all for the spending that night with me, not to forget the song dedication, the cake and the flaming tower which I drank with a melted straw ):

I'm a Orange card holder! Whee, have Thai Express with me!

Did a different kind of training today, the 2 minutes endurance sets which drove everyone mad especially the triceps workout. ):

Going home tomorrow after spending 3 nights in hall. I hope my mum is cooking (:

I'm hungry, its three, I should be sleeping ):

I'm putting all Adam Lambert's songs on repeat, so niceeee :)

As long as you bring I'll keep right on sync

2009-10-28T01:14:00.003+08:00

I was drenched in thousand island, chocolate chips, beer, ketchup, sesame seeds, almond milk, milo powder, coffee powder and eggs. With friends like these, who needs enemies. Thank you for the great time! Especially the babies(AWWWW :D)

I am 20 now! :D

Wheeeeeee~

when we collide, we break

2009-10-27T00:03:00.003+08:00

I have really low tolerance for low temperatures ): and everywhere seems really cold, my room, the LTs, comp labs, buses and trains.

School is fine except I cant make myself stay awake for lectures ): slept an hour away and now my parents are especially strict to make me wake up on time for my 830 classes. D: I swear I dont know my alarm clock had been ringing for the more than 15 minutes until my dad or mom starts the panick attack in my room. So sad, I cant snooze anymore, I cant skip my 830 classes anymore, except Fridays! Hee.

Anyway, I love home cooked food, the pork vege stew and chicken stew. Wheeee~ Guess I'll miss home cooked food for one week ):

I'm looking forward to what the BFPM has to say! :))

2009-10-25T21:19:00.004+08:00

My pet at Pet Society still gets vistors. Free hugs and kisses. Hahaha :D

I was crying just to get you

2009-10-25T17:27:00.004+08:00

I had smelly feet for a day ):

And I love Adam Lambert's new single!

MBFM has got to be my favourite pest :D

i wont blink cause that would mean, I would miss a second beside you

2009-10-24T22:37:00.002+08:00

Sometimes life gets a little exciting with a bit of bitching ((:

Conclusion I drew from the whole bitch talk, we are not some fucking 9 year olds so dont talk to us like we are. Its time to fight back. Like KA-POW.

I secretly enjoy this bitching going on.

I'll try to find my place with you

2009-10-23T02:04:00.004+08:00

I'm not feeling good, not because training wasnt good, not because school sucks. But because I'm all messed up, because I feel extremely shitty at everything, even if its at the slightest thing. Because its so hard to force a smile. I dont know what I should or should not do now. Because I'm not brave enough to face even myself, let alone everything that awaits me.

Till then, time will tell.

And I'll stay alive just to follow you home

2009-10-22T00:40:00.003+08:00

Land training yesterday was shagged to the max. And my body is aching like mad since morning ): Studied at can a after that, which was quite productive cause I managed to clear all my spanish homework, though she dint go through them today ):

:D lmboj!

i cant live, if living is without youuuu

2009-10-19T23:21:00.003+08:00

T.T <---------- I'm like this now. Cause EVERYONE is feeling sian.
I am so upset. Crushed my dreams, my hopes, my motivation, my almost everything. Ohmygod. I cant live~~~~

DD:

Mid-sweet talk

2009-10-17T22:27:00.002+08:00

HIIIIIIII :)

Burnt and exhausted.
This weekend had been so hot. Too hot to be out and about ):
And I cant seem to dedicate my weekends to revisions, I'm so dead for the final exams
I want to go shopping tomorrow but I should be studying. sigh.

I want to eat steammboat and xlbsssss

My head is bursting..... Ugh.

tell me I'm special even though I know I'm not

2009-10-17T00:10:00.005+08:00

After pa bo-ing for almost a week, I'm finally home and I think I will concuss before my dad comes home

Spent alot on food today, ahh, like alot of meals D:

Anyway was at the flyer just now for dinner and millenia walk for lkp.

Oh and I hurt my wrist in my sleep last night, probably crushed by some unknown giant and no joke, it really hurts T.T

This week had been full of activities, sports appreciation night, mayflower, blood donation, team bbq :)

Talking about blood donation, I managed to pass my iron level test this time! More donations to come.

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I feel so frustrated when I cant make myself feel better. This issue had been constantly on my mind and I'm really really getting sick of it. And because of this, my mood had been fluctuating really bad, why cant I have peace from within ): Why cant I just tell myself fuck it and not be bothered. Tired of how people look at me, helpless about the things that are happening and how the next moment can be so unpredictable. And I absolutely hate it when there are people who make life worse for me. I need to meditate, I need to get out from the nervous wreck.

Because I should be happy. Life's beautiful. Stop thinking.

No one ever said that it would be this hard

2009-10-11T22:53:00.004+08:00

Silver medal for women's opens, cheers to phoenix :)

I feel like I have trusted the wrong person. Fuck up. I feel so sore, so annoyed, so pissed. I can kill some zebraaas. D: D:

let me shake up your world

2009-10-10T23:10:00.002+08:00

I wanted to blog about something but I forgot. Damnit.
Anyway, Day 1 SAVASPRINTS is over ): no medals yet. Now I wonder, how could they let a 20 women boat join a mixed category race. Shouldnt there be a minimum number of guys in a boat like how there is a minimum number of girls in the boat to make some sense? Anyway, my boat lost to the women only boat, in a mixed race. So depressing. Missing out even on the bronze medal.

Tertiary women's was a disaster I feel. Shitty shitty.

Opens 18 women crew tomorrow. Opponents are super tough, super dolphins, nus and many others. All the best (:

every scene was a sign we made through their meaning

2009-10-09T21:39:00.002+08:00

End of the week of tests and more tests :D Fantástico!

I spend 2/3 of my time sleeping and 2/3 of the time awake falling asleep, not a case of insonmia but serious cant-get-enough-sleep problem. D:

SAVA is this weekend! (:

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true

2009-10-07T20:10:00.003+08:00

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Three tests this friday, tell me am I going to die ):

you come along because I love your face

2009-10-05T22:31:00.002+08:00

School started and I skipped the first lecture, spent the afternoon asleep, an hour half in spanish class. ): Tests tests and more tests. Why am I always so sleepy.

I'm ready to jump

2009-10-02T21:14:00.004+08:00

My student said
When I grow up I want to open a zoo,
you can be the monkey, my mum will be the beaver
..
my brother will be the fish so I can catch and fry it.

I'm so full from dinner.

Mid Autumn tomorrow, full moooooon :D

she is

2009-10-02T10:21:00.002+08:00

I am home alone and loving it (:
No mum to ask me to clear the bin, pack my desk and stop staring into my laptop. And I can blast the music from the other room Whooooooo :D

My stomach is not feeeeling well again. Damnit. lslslslsls DDD:

I'm having second thoughts on keeping a dog now. LOL.

math tut is very hardddddd lar ):

you are a wishing well

2009-10-01T21:50:00.002+08:00

Ugh, my study table is in a mess again. I hate those wires. The charger, the mouse, the usb cables ): And alot of rubber dust.

Muscle achessss D:

baby's black balloon

2009-09-29T23:41:00.004+08:00

I've stood in a thousand street scenes
Just around the corner from you
On the edge of a dream that you have
Has anybody ever told you it's not coming true

Caught The Time Traveller's Wife today. Not bad a storyline but confused me a little, all the movies with time travelling, teleporting whatever confuse me. Just like The Prestige ):

Next tearjerker has got to be My Sister's Keeper with the crybaby(gerlz) HAHAHA

Superdog for lunch, Gelare for dessert, Nihon Mura for dinner.

Mixed training tomorrow then team lunch :)

you should just stop talking,

because you are not at the top of the world,

and I'm not at your feet.
kyhomg

2009-09-27T18:54:00.002+08:00

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I was so bored, I browsed through my fb pictures, I actually missed June Race period ): All the intensive prep trainings, kena gan by ah hee, having trainings almost everyday, under the hot sun, doing endless 1km sets, spending whole day at kallang because of double sessions and the race weekend when I kept having PRSS and definitely post race partying and the long break from rowing. Awww, it was all pain and gain. I want to go through this again. :D

Rowing and Coffee Bean/Starbucks :)

nice legs, daisy dukes

2009-09-26T22:16:00.005+08:00

So I didnt have to rush off after my friday lectures for my tuition this week :) Sometimes I tgif sometimes I dont cause fridays give me the weekend is here im not going to see my friends )): feeling though I still see them on weekends. WEIRD.

So fluids CA was cui. I read through tutorials and this similar question came out but I couldnt remember the details so I couldnt do D: CUI.

Flew back hall, nua-ed and left fro JP for KUISHINBO dong dong dong :D Okay I really have to admit I'm a loser when it comes to buffets cause I get knocked out really soon. Sashimi and mussels. FTW :)) Grocery shopped before heading back hall to bath and hall-hopped over to apple's hall for some intensive nuaing and zou bo session.

Had quite an early night as compared to the usual time I'll sleep whenever I stay in hall. But I is still cui the next morning. ):

Rowing was alright. Kclub after that. But I fell asleep near the end of the thing. So tireddd.

Lamb for lunch and dinner today, I love sheep. Yums :B

No time for heart attack

2009-09-25T12:47:00.002+08:00

I don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's grey and wednesday too
thursday i don't care about you
it's friday I'm in love

Morning's quiz was superb, cause we cheated well. :D

Fluids CA later. o.o

KUISHINBO tonight!~ Wheeee~

Daylight licked me into shape

2009-09-23T13:19:00.002+08:00

Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream she said
The one that makes me laugh she said
And threw her arms around my neck
Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you

I have to resit a test ): quiz and test this friday!

throwing out your frown

2009-09-22T00:47:00.002+08:00

I'm going for my MOM test unprepared. Whats new. I dont even know the test format. Spanish assignment due on wednesday and fluids test on thurs. HUAT AH. I cant sit still and study. Someone tie me to the chair and stop me from surfing the net instead of studying ):

2009-09-21T13:43:00.002+08:00

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Now I know why the 2001 lecturer doesnt encourage us to rely on online lectures. Cause the sound quality is fking lousy, I cannot even hear his voice. And the buzzing noise is so irritating. FUCK.

I gag trying to eat that egg mayo and cheese and ham sandwich giab between two toasts. Must be the egg mayo.

Sunshine or rain, it's all the same, life isn't gray. Oh Mary-Lou

2009-09-20T20:44:00.002+08:00

I got a scratch on my face D:

I'm looking forward to the postponed china trip.
Cause its winter :))

Anyway team has been doing well at training,
SAVA here we come~

The fat cats had a heart attack

2009-09-19T23:33:00.006+08:00

AUTOCAR is so shiok to read, even if its just looking at the pictures.
Ferrari Califonia is super hot.

Nice.

Anyway a whole day out today! Rowing + espanol class + kim gary lunch + the Ugly Truth + BK dinner :)

And the two months old corgi pup is so cute. I want a corgi, sorry to all pugs out there. POCA is now reserved for my future corgi. heee.

I wasnt tired till I finish browsing Autocar, all the excitement burnt out my remaining energy ):

And, I bit my tongue twice yesterday and my wisdom tooth is making my gum swell again and my lip cracked. So now my mouth is f-ing cui cause everywhere hurts.

Oh fuck, I need to mention this! I saw the supposedly-old-adizero-model-which-i-cant-find-anywhere-else-so-have-to-settle-for-the-last-pair-at-queensway-at-127$-on-sales-in-an-adidas-shop-at-127.40$!! And I supposed they have a new pair of my size. And even if its also the last pair, I bet it will still be cleaner than the one I got off the shoe rack at Queensway. UGH, so annoying.

BUT, I will be wearing it tomorrow! Wheeeee~